Leanna's Winding Path

20 June 2010 - A Perfect Moment

I just had a perfect moment.  I know I experience these often, but I am very grateful I took the time to be conscious of this one.

Just as the sun was starting to set, I was walking home from the Co-op.  I was carrying my shoes, cause I’ve been convinced that barefoot is the way to go.  There is something connecting and pleasurable about having your feet make direct contact with the earth as you glide across it.  There were hundreds of lightening bugs in our courtyard.  I decided to stop at the bench in the courtyard and watch them.  They were everywhere, like twinkling stars slowly rising up out of the grass.

Then I decided to pull out the chocolate milk I had just purchased and have a drink.  Drinking that chocolate milk that was oh so tasty and watching those lightening bugs and feeling the air of a perfect summer night was like seeing a glimpse into heaven.  Perfect.

I’m going to have more treatment with the cyberknife soon.  Really good news – the tumors they treated in April responded very well the cyberknife treatment.  They shrank pretty significantly.  The tumors that they didn’t treat have grown in the mean time.  So, we’re going to do it again. 

Friends, I’m really okay with this.  It’s not overly surprising.  They didn’t treat the tumors that are growing the first time because they did not know at the time if they were growing or not.  Now, they know they are growing.  Time to treat.  I’m glad that I have options, options that seem to be effective.

And the treatment really isn’t that bad – a little discomfort, a little nausea, and a little fatigue.  A good night or two of rest, and I’m right back up again.  However all this radiation (I think it’s more from the whole brain radiation) does seem to have had an effect on my memory.  Please let me know if you have any ideas for cool memory games or other tools for building mind function.