Leanna's Winding Path
Hi friends. Thanks for checking in on me. I thought this would be a good place to share with you the details about my journey in this life. I hope to keep it simple and honest.
I love you.
15 March 2011 – The cybes of March
I’m trying to make a decision. To treat or not to treat.
Treatment with Cyberknife is rapidly approaching unless I decide not to do it. I’m a bit more nervous this time than the times before. The side effects from the previous go-arounds with this incredible procedure were really difficult to deal with. Right after the procedures, they weren’t so bad, but months after, they sure were. I’m just starting to feel right-ish again. Yesterday I even ran. Not for long, mind you, but a few weeks ago, anything longer than a slow little walk would knock me out. My side effects lasted for months and months.
A large part of how one will react to any treatment has to do with the attitude and the belief that the treatment will be beneficial. At this moment, I’m feeling stressed about the treatment and the decision.
I have to decide by Thursday morning. My options are to wait and re-evaluate if I even need treatment in two to three months (currently the option I’m most comfortable with) or to treat next week (the current plan), or to wait a month and treat (which would give me an extra month of feeling well, but would still result in treatment). By the way – I’m the only one in my immediate circle of people I talk to about this who thinks that waiting and possibly not treating is a good idea. But it’s always been important to me to listen to my gut.
If you would like to direct your prayers and positive thoughts this way, I could use some divine guidance in making this decision.
I’m going to talk to my neurosurgeon this afternoon. He is the most down to earth doctor I have. I think he’ll be able to advise me.
