Leanna's Winding Path

6 December 2010 – My Gift to Me

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With the Young Adult Cancer Survivors group that I’ve been co-organizing, I recently participated in a pretty intensive self-reflective process.  We organized a project called Our Stories.  We had a videographer come and shoot some film of us sharing our stories.  We hope to create a video that will inspire and give hope to those who have been diagnosed.

The videographer really had a really interesting take on the project, and one of the things she had me do was to read some of my blog posts aloud.  Sometimes I go back and look at my blogs – and especially your comments – and feel blessed.  But this time was more profound.  I scanned everything I’ve written.  I realized, that my blog is really important to me.  And, I’m not too proud to say, that I think it matters to you too.  It’s been such a good way to share this experience with the people who both I care about and who care about me.  And hopefully, it’s even helpful for strangers who might stumble upon what I’ve written here.

Sometimes, I get hung up on the thought that it’s a bit self-indulgent or preachy or that no one is really interested, so I throttle back the writing.  Other times, there is so much going on that I want to share, that I can’t just pick one thing to write about. So I don’t write about anything.  And there’s also the times that I am “too busy” to write.  Again, no posts come out of this.

But after reviewing my blog the other night, I realize, it’s too important to me to give up on it.  So I’m going to give this gift to myself, and I’m going to keep posting.

Hopefully you’ll keep reading.

Oh, also, your comments are a huge gift to me too.  They always make me feel comforted.

Thanks for your interest.

Love,

Leanna